Friday, March 03, 2006
♥ 9:52 PM
There is so much i wanna say.... So much so much......Where shd i start from??? I really dunno....
There is so much so much going through my mind.....
I learnt alot about myself from him...He told me alot of things which I never knew...He tell me where i goes wrong...And what i should not do... No... There is absoutely nothing wrong between us.... We're still very happy together......Anyway here's what I'm gonna say.....
*Red represents what people who dislike me will think/say...I get misunderstood easily.... I don't know why....
(You should know why!!!! Coz you sucks big time!!!!)Maybe it's becoz of my attitude or my character...
(Good that you know... I totally hate your attitude.... Thinking that you're so great and so power....Fuck you....)I admit i do not haf the best attitude or character in the whole wide world...(Nobody will ever haf that..) I admit i do get defensive when i feel that you're trying to hurt me..... But who doesn't protect themselves??? I fight back when I feel that you're too much... But everyone has a limit... You ppl may think my limit is just that little bit... But i can tell you that's juat a miss conception...My limit may not be that much but it aren't that little too
....(Aiya....You are just a petty bitch... small little things also can get angry...Always saying sarcastic stuff about ppl... What's so great about you... Just a brat living off your dad!!!!)Girls just dislike me....(maybe some guys too...) I don't know why....
(Of coz you know....Come on ...Stop saying you don;t know la!!!!! Act act act!!!! I just HATE you!!!)I can swear that once i think you're my friend i sincerely treat you as one...I know ppl out there who dislike me will certainly disagree.... But since you already dislike me I'm sure you wont agree with me saying I'm really nice to you before you people start disliking me for god knows what reason..... Since sec 1 I've went through betrayal and backstabbing from people i think are my friends??? Why?? I never know.... I don't forget.... But i do forgive.... I really do..... Coz i believe people will change.... However betraying and backstabbing doesn't stop..... They just get worse... And they come from all the friends around you.... That really hurts
...(Serve you right!!!! You also bachstab ppl what.. Don't make till as if you're a saint.... And that you don't backstab n betray your friends.. Bitch...Get a life la!!!! I hope you doesnt get any true friends!!!!You forgive and forget??? I doubt so ah!!!!)I'm really nice to them.... (I'm not trying to gain sympathy....I just hope to be enlighten on why people or so alled friends do such things....) I offered to ask my dad to drive them to the mrt or bus stop or home if it's along the way.... They took up such offers readily and happily... But once behind you... They start saying you're a rich spoilt pampered brat... What a nice way to repay your kindness isn't it???
(Are you sure??? people also neba say want take your dad's car.... IS you ownself want ask your dad to fetch us one what!!!! You're just trying to showoff loh... So what if your dad got car??? You're just so pampered loh....cannpt ownself take train or bus home meh??? Your dad work so hard liao dun want let him rest.... Unfilial child!!!!)I wonder what is wrong with asking my dad to drive me home when he is just ard the area and he's also going home??? It's not like he's already at home and i ask to come out again just to fetch me home....I admit I'm dependant on my parents.. Esp my dad...I rely on him alot... Coz he's really is the
BEST dad in this whole wide world..... So what if i doesn't work during school holidays??? Evryone assume I'm pampered and that I doesn't want to work... But no..... I really want to try working.... (lotsa ppl must b disagreeing now...I can see them sniggering....)
(How you know we'll disagree..... You sure do know us well ah.... Just admit you are pampered and lazy la...Stop puching all the blame to your dad loh......) But my dad doesn't allow.... He's worried that i'll neglect my studies....Just like how he FIRMLY disallow me to join NPCC during my sec sch days..... Everone thinks I'm rich just because i can afford to change HP....But that's because my dad get a $500 voucher for his phone plan.....I doesn't need to pay much for the new phone that i get......(
You're just rich loh... Dad always gib u $$$... Can buy whatever you want.... Rich brat who doesn't know how hard earn this $$$ is.....so stop giving bloody excuse la... Just admit you're RICH!!! Bitch..)I'm stubborn...I know that... If i really want sth... I'll want it my way... Maybe that kind of attitude angers ppl... But i do give in and turn a blind eye to things at time.. In fact...Too many things.... Things i shouldn't give in to i did
...(No no no...You're just trying to make yourself seem nice...You selfish bitch...Always thinking that you're right.....) It's not like i've to win everytime....I only try to win everytime when i'm with him..... He agrees that i treat my friend nicer than how i treat him.....(Alot NICER.....)
(You always bully your bf... Treat him like shit.. Petty and bad tempered... Doesn't know why you 2 are still together) I know ppl who dislike me think I'm a lazy bum who slacks around... ask my dad for $$$... Doesn't do anything at all...You people doesn't have to tell me... I can sense it....some just spread to my ears... All i can do is pretend that i know non of these.... Pathetic right??? What a stupid fool i am....
(Good that you know you're a fool and is so pathetic.... Grow up and get a life and a job la.... For goodness sake... You not sianz of slacking ard so much meh???? I think you really beyond cure liao!!!!every holiday also slack... Now got degree liao still slack.... Such a wastrel...I pity your parents... Have to feed you.... So old liao dunno how to earn your own keep and feed urself..... Totally pathetic!!!!) But all these are stuff they seen or hear.... I guess i doen't need to explain to them why I'm slacking around during holidays..... Why I'm not looking for a job....Why I doesn't need to earn my keep... Why i can be so lazy.... blah blah blah.....(The list is never ending la....)Since all of them have such bad impression of me.... To them.... I'm just a spoilt pampered brat
...(ya ya... You indeed is!!!!!)I wonder do these people whom i call friends really treat me as one or jus a stupid fool whom they could made full use of
...(are you sure ou treat us as friends in the 1st place??? I don;t think so loh.... You did so many unforgivable and horrible stuff and you say you treat us as friends... I say you're the one making full use of us ah!!!!!) He says I'm too silly and too giving at times....I believe in giving it all for a friendship.... Coz i believe that a friendship is for life.... But i get hurt time and again....Maybe it's time to really let go..... He say:"Your life doesn't revolve around them... you can still lead my own life what... Why care about what other ppl say??? As long as i know and your gd friends know that you're not like that can liao loh... Why bother about those trival ppl???And make your life so miserable???" Quite true... I lead my own life... I don't need this kind of backstabbing friends.... I can live happier w/o them...But it still hurts when you know and think about what they've done
....( Ya ya... You can live alone till you die... You'll be so happy then.... Coz you'll be basically living in your own world.....I really do pity ose whom you all true friends..... I think you aren't nice to them also.... Maybe it's your own wilful thinking.... Maybe they hate you too... I certainly hope they do.... You aren't a great friend to being with!!!!)Ignorance can be a bliss sometimes.....
