Saturday, May 03, 2008
♥ 10:59 PM
Omg.. I haven't blog for like ages... No wonder blogger always can't remember me on my computer... Stupid..
Almost 2 months... I can see giantic cobwebs building on my site... But i guess nobody bothers to read also... Nothing interesting AT ALL!!! Just complaints about work and life...
Why do people have so much complains?I guess we'll never contented with what we have... We always want more... When we've got more we want even more.... Greedy people.. Not as if I'm not like that... I'm obviously 1 of the kind... Because I'm constantly complaining to everyone!!!!!! I'm a complain QUEEN!!! I guess that's because of my job... Service line..... Waiting for people to write complains letter about you and vent their anger on you... Sometimes I'm so sick of it.... But do I have a choice??? They're patients... They got the right... Sick of talking about all these.. Don't misunderstand.. I didn;t get any complain letters.. It's just tired of all these shit....
Apr 21st was our JCIA week... Everyone was super duper gan chiong... I can't stand it... That week i almost went mad.... I went into a loner state.... I don't talk to ppl.... I show a disinterested face.... I can't be bothered... When in fact i'm Very bothered and affected... everyday without fail we'll get scolding in the morning.... We get spotchecks from her throughout the day.... It's getting on our nerves... She's so stressed up and she can't control her emotions and the only way she knows is to vent it on us!!! We're HUMANS too.... We're not for you to vent your frustration or to relieve your stress.... Find some other places or ppl to do it.... Every single day for that week.... Even till now... I got that dishearten feeling in me..... My colleague asked me something on the train that day... Am i leaving.. I asked her why.. And she say I'm not showing that enthusiasm at work...I said i was just very tired... Tired of the way she's treating us..Tired of being so last min... Tired of all the changes and we having to memorise all of them... Tired of all the lecturing... Tired of i guess EVERYTHING... that doesn't mean that I haven't thought of leaving... I guess that's always what in the juniors' mind.... It's just that there haven't been any gd opportunity....
Apprasial week again... A few of my friends have gone through theirs... i don't know when mine will be.. I guess i really lost that enthusiasm somewhere along the way.... I don't know if i'll find it back... I goes to work like a corpse everyday.. do my duties.keep to myself and leave on the dot... I'm tired... I'm just tired.....What shd i say to her??? My training??? My pay??? Her attitude?? Almost 2 yrs there... Ex colleague master her EEG in 2 yrs.. Me... 2 yrs and i haven't even touch a head... Pathetic... Pay.... I think I'm losing out to alot of ppl who started work ard the same time as me.... Sucks..... Her attitude is not worth saying.... She won;t change.... It's wont make a difference anyway.....
Bf doing summer course for 1 month...Meanwhile I'm trying tokeep myself entertain.. He doesn't understand sometimes... Or maybe it's me who doesn't understand most of the time..... days to weeks to months... We shd be getting used to it... I think we're too used to it to a pt I'm worried...
I guess enoygh of depressing stuff... As i'm typing this post i can see the gloomy clouds gathering above my head!!!! Shit... Anyway It's gonna be my BIRTHDAY SOON!!!!
which also means that I'm getting older and lder and oder!!!!
FREAK!!!!!! Can i just stay at 21yrs old...... I seem so old now.... Sometimes i don't even know what nowadays small kids are talking about..... That's GENERATION GAP!!!! Argh!!!!!! But i still wonder what the bf have in mind..... I've to fetch him on that day la..... Stupid!!!!! He better have a whole day plan in mind!!!!1 Bleah...
