Sunday, October 31, 2004
♥ 5:54 PM
My baby boy... look at his round face... hee
Friday, October 29, 2004
♥ 10:55 PM
I'm damn sad..... I wonder why... it's 11... And he havent call... Maybe he's busy packing his field camp stuff... but he've been packing since wed... Is there really so much stuff to bring??? I'm going crazy sitting here waiting for his SMS....
He's going for field camp tml... sad...
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (Too lost in you)
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
♥ 11:41 PM
"Every moment without you, is a moment of time lost."
Saturday, October 23, 2004
♥ 4:39 PM
I feel so tired... Wanna zzz and zzz and zzz.... Too lazy...
Been raining non stop.... Cool weather... Wonder what's my dear doing... How's ur range??? Isit indoor?? Isit cancelled due to the rain??/ Haha... I'm wonderimg too much... i'll know the answers tonight... Haha...
I'll be able to see u on monday... Finally... Let's hope and pray that today and tomorrow pass faster and monday will be here with a blink of our eyes... Then we'll be able to see each other... It's just a week plus since we last saw each other.... But it seems long... Maybe coz i got nothing to do... So my mind keep wandering and missing and thinking and dreaming non stop.... Haha... Time for you to go library with me to borrow books... Or should we go borders to buy a dozen??? Hee...
We should really go catch a movie... 30th sept was the last time i watched a movie with you... we still havent watch white chicks... you promised to watch with me last week... But then we were damn tired...(coz i was tortured by u all... and u tortured by NS) Haha...End up sleeping in the end... Haha...
Thursday, October 21, 2004
♥ 2:56 PM
I think there is really sth wrong with my PC... MAybe it's down with spyware??? Seems abit crazy... Dunno wat's really wrong with it... Got lots of strange pop-ups. Frustrated with them.. Wiat till my bro come back then ask him to fixed it...
So boring... been rotting again... Becoz i've got no job... Actually i've almost got 1.. But my dad told me not to take it... So i'm still rotting... Think i'll jus rt till feb... By then i'll be a fat lazy pig... Who eat n sleep and slack all the time... Haha... Think my bf wont even recognize me again... Then I'm too fat then he'll ditch me... Find one slim pretty tall young gal... (If my bf reads this he'll surley scold me for going crazy again... Haha...)
It's all your fault that i thinks so much........ Coz i'm too bored and you don'y hve the time to accompany me... weekends pass too fast..... weekdays pass like yrs..... If this continues... You'll find me in wood bridge soon....... =(
Monday, October 18, 2004
♥ 5:17 PM
Just finishing applying for my visa... Got so much qns to ans... I don't even know if i answered them correctly... I was so confused by them... But nevermind... I have to go for my checkup soon... All the clinics are at orchard... But the i have to do e x-ray n medical checkup at different clinic... So stupid... Why it can't it be a one stop kind of thing... Have to run here run there...
15th oct... went pasir ris to celebrate my friend 21st bdae.... I drove... And we almost caused an accident and i almost knoceked someone down... Best right??? haha... Coz we dunno the way to her hse... So we were looking at road signs... then suddenly we saw a sign that say TPE and i haf to cut my car in so tat almost caused a accident... Later i send my friend to eunos mrt... when i wanted to turn out i almost knockeda malay woman down... I
SWEAR i really didn't see her... But my riend say she was there all along... Must be I'm too tired... Shit...
Enjoyed myself on 16th... Hee... he booked out at nine... Then we went beach road with is bunk mates... they're quite stupid... They walked from bugis to beach road... what a torture for me... it was so damn warm that day... I was sweating like siao... Then there was like so many NS men buying stuff... Then i just stood there like a fool... Hoping that they can faster finish their shopping then i can have him all by myself!!! But they had to look for poncho... then went to many stall... but only managed to find 2... so too bd for his other 2 bunk mates... HAha..
17th oct... Met him in the evening for dinner... Was sad again... Coz he won't be coming put till 24th oct... And 24th oct is a sun... That means i only get to see him for less than 12 hrs and he haf to book in again... Then the next time i see him is in NOV.. Coz he having his field trip next week... So no booking out...
SAD SAD SAD!!!!! But after that field trip think he'll can book out for 4-5 days... BUT.... That's still very long... Let me look forward to this sumday now... Six more days...
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (Too lost in you)
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
♥ 11:32 PM
Assholes....idiots... Get out of my life.... Out of my sight.... I hate you!!!
slackers.... slackers... slackers....
i'm a fool...I'm stupid... I'm angry... i'm sad.... I'm pissed off... i'm shutting myself down!!!!
Sunday, October 10, 2004
♥ 8:37 PM
I'm creating a new post every 2 days... Haha...
I'm soooo HAPPY today!!!!! I get to see my bf!!!!!! Hahaha...... Therefore I'm ecstatic, elated, glad, gleeful....... Haha... I managed to "smuggle" myself in... Haha... Got to see him after soooo long...... Then he commented that my hair look messy(coz i ran all the way to the interchange to find his parents...) n i'm wearing the same shirt as 1st oct(i was wearing red n grey strip shirt... today i was wearing pink...)
that goes to show he didn;t really pay attention...sobz sobz.... =..(
He still look the same... except that his hair is almost all gone... Looks funny... It's super HOT there... I almost got heat stroke... He was sweating like pig... So ke lian.... His mum bought alot of food for him... Alot of parents bought lots of food for their sons... Really look like they're in jail... Haiz...
went orchard after that.... Shop ard... didn't get anything... Thinking of what to get for his bdae... anyone got any suggestion??? Hmm...
Looking forward to 16 oct now... 6 more days.... (I'll be seeing u again, dear.......Haha...)
Are u missing me already????
Friday, October 08, 2004
♥ 9:51 PM
Ya Ya... I noe... it's me again...Another entry... And i really tried looking for a job... But the moment ppl hear I'm only working for three mths they just rejected me... I had such a good chance of getting that clinic job... But... Haiz...(I think i shd just lie...) So now I'm still idling at home... Going out with my mum... wasting her $$$... haha... No wonder she keep urging me to find a job... Haha...(yes... I'm looking for a job thru agency now...)
8 more days... yeah... Shd be quite fast... haha...
Looking forward to his call later... Haha...
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
♥ 4:28 PM
I know i keep blogging nowadays... i know I'm too free... But no... I really did try look for a job... Just that whenever i call nobody picks p the phone or they jus dun return my call... Sooooo saaaaddd.... Haha... But i'll continue to try... Meanwhile I'll still rot my time away... Haha...
My dear called me in e middle og the night on mon... I was still thinking why he didn't call me at 10 plus... Then i found out is whle team was late so they got punished from morning till night... so pititful.... Then I thought i was dreaming when he called so i asked him on tue dd he call me then he said ya... So i wasnt dreaming... haha... Yest he called me twice... think that's his only so free day... No punishment.... haha... Today... I shall wait for his call.. See what funny thing happen again... haha...
this blog shall becum a story abt his 2 weeks confinment in tekong... haha... All the stupid things they do... all the punishments he get... All theofficers "torturing" them... haha... cool...
Cut my hair yesterday... don't think it look like shit.... haha... oh ya... time to apply for my visa... if not my bro gonna nag at me liao.... (he's gettting old...)
Monday, October 04, 2004
♥ 1:35 PM
Today's only monday... Still got 12 more days... Soooooo loooong.... But at least he bother to call me every night...
His platoon sergeant seems very bad.... keep using vulgar lanuage on them... punishing them... harsh to them... He only got 15 mins to finish his meals... Sad... He's got a buddy and he's chinese...(that shd be a big load off his mind)... Haha,...
Getting tired.... Slept till quite late today... Was even sleeping my my dreamz... eating and zzz at e same time... How did i ever get myself so tired????
time to flip thru the classified ads..... bbbbbbbbbyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeee
Friday, October 01, 2004
♥ 8:09 PM
Oct 1st (his enlistment day)... A sad day for me... Not sure for him... It was still okie in the late noon when we went in to tekong together... But after reaching there with his parents, we went off to see his Bunk n canteen and alot of places(without him...of coz...) i started to miss him... esp when we spent one hr sitting at e canteen doing nothing... Sitting there in a daze... watching the tinme pass ever so slowly... finally we went to e auditiorium... i didn't get to see or sit beside him... I was trying my best to see where he was... But there's just too much ppl... But nvm... I still manage to catch a glimpse of him when he was taking his oath...
Then it's time for dinner... dinner was fast n quiet... Nobody talk... everybody was concentrating on their food... time pass damn fast this time... too fast.... soon everyone left... And so we had to leave too...
We walk slowly to the terminal... didn't say anything much... there was this sadness in the air... Maybe in mine only... haha... we reach that terminal... he had to leave so do we... we just had a brief goodbye... a hugz for me... And we turn to leave... walking down that super super long stretch of passageway to the ferry... i hate to turn back my head... But my head jus doesn't listen to me... I turned but he was gone... I hate this separation...
10 oct... parents visiting day... i won't have that chance to see him... they only allow 2 visitors... As expected... his parents will be e one going...nher mum didn't even ask if i wanted to go...
16 oct... he's finally able to book out of camp... that will be the day i'm looking forward to... A day of fun with him...
as for now... i only hope he's able to call me today and for the rest of 15 nights... And the only way i get to see him is by looking at the photo on my table...
it's also time to look for a job... maybe time will pass easier and i wont think so much....
*counting down to 16th oct*
