Tuesday, March 27, 2007
♥ 8:44 AM
I am so so so so so x 9863416times ANGRY with her..... Damn it!!!!!! I simply can't stand the sight of her!!!!! My blooding is boiling everytime i see her face...Which means my pressure is on constant high every single day!!!!1 I'll burst a vessel soon and it gonna be all her fault... I'm trying mybest and yet she's trying her best to find fault...Hello!!!!!!!! Now is you not acknowledging my presence ok!!!!!!! If thats' wat you want so be it..Anyway lotsa ppl aren't happy with you either....I guess it's just a matter of time now...The promise is destined to be broken and mark my words i wont regret the choice i gonna make soon..... For there is nothing for me to feel sad and sorry abt...Oh..Maybe there are...The bunch of kind, helpful, nice friends i've made....Other than that the rest is jus shit....Esp YOU.... It's all your actions that are driving ppl away....How come you aren't reflecting on your mistakes at all???? Why do you think ppl come and go??? All you know is that they've betrayed you...When in fact it's you bloody bitch who've force them to make such a decision...I need a real long break now...To get you outta my sight..Forget abt all the shit..And really Think thru stuff...
Mr BF have been supporting me much recently..Listening to my compalins and of course agreeing that she's a fucked up witch.....Who is selfish and self-centered and biased and practise favouritism.... Which is damn obvious to all..... But i gonna miss him for the next 3 weeks.....Coz he gonna start studying liao... Then there'll be no 1 to listen to my woes.... Coz i'm sure there will be alot more complaints frm me... Even he finds that i havent been telling him interesting stories likebe4..Now all i ever do is feel sad for myself...Wallow in depression...Complain lots!!!!! I'm going md soon...Serious....
Anyway enuff of complaints....Let's see what i've done recently...
Watched TMNT yest...Can't really undestand the stories and the turtles look malnourishedand old...Haha...But if you ppl really want watch it watch during weekdays...Certainly not worth the weekend price...
Gonna watched Mr Bean with my parents later!!!!Yeah..Wanted to go the cathay...But my dad's so unwilling..hen it's too bad....Coz i think she n my mama wont go all the way there to watch movie alone....
I hope to learn the stuff faster so that i can do what i've been thinking abt..It's all abt timing now..... Ineed the knowledge and experience...But it's not up to me to plan now..It's them... Damn...
Monday, March 19, 2007
♥ 9:54 AM
My thumb is in such pain..I wanna chop it off.. Argh... Why am i always so careless??? Cutting myself or knocking into things or hurting myself...Haiz.. No wonderhe say im like a small kid..Doesn't know how to take care of myself.. I'm injury queen ok... I told my sis I dun hf the enjoy life life... Coz i wanted to drink a bottle of bird nest and i end up cutting my whole thumb..Dman stupid.. Now drink how many bottle also no use..Haiz...
So sick of work!!!!! How how how!!!!!11 I just wanna take a long break and zzz at home!!!! I'mnot tired...I'm just sianz..I love my bed too much..It's so hard and nice to lie on...Oh..I;m thinking abt e bed more than i misses my boy...He gonna be sa sad...
Mr Alvin is getting FAT!!!!!!!!! Wahaha....So sad...Eating too much and not exercising makes him a fat pig!!!!! I' always teasing him..Not that i'm duper skinny myself..I noe im obese..But it's fun teasing him and pinching his flabby stomach whichhe claims haf 6 pacs... Stupid boy...Lucky his arms not flabby..If not gross...
I told him i gonna pis yoga frm thur-sun and he scolded me..wahaha..Ask why i so pia..It's all becoz of u boy... You dun haf the time for me so i indulge myself in yoga loh... So that you wontcomplain i keep disturbing u ok!!!!! Idiot.....
My thumb's in pain.....i can't bend it...I wanna go home...Rest my poor thumb....
Thursday, March 15, 2007
♥ 9:30 AM
My hse is more or less ready...Will be moving back on fri i think then i'll be able to go nline!!!Finally...But i MUST meet up with e bf 1st... Then I must go for my uoga lessons!!!I'm so lacking behind this week...But nvm..I shall be going today!!!!1\ Getting fat...Must lose some wt...Now i'm so scared to weigh myself..Coz i'm scared i'll spoil the weighing machine...
The rm's so pretty now...So excited..I'm actually quite glad we renovated the rooms... It shall be a new start...Yeah... Anyway back to my new;y renovated hse... I still think my rom is the prettiest...My mama say my room look like a barbie doll's room... So funny.. Coz i painted the room pinkish purple...The bed and table is greyish white in color... The cupboard's color is chosen by the carpenter... So That's my pretty room...Shall wait till i've clean up the whole hse then i shall post up pics of my room ONLY...Wahaha..I guess you ppl aren't interested in my bro's and parents rm also...Hee... I miss my home so much!!!!
But the packing n cleaing up is terrible..My back is in pain now!!!!!! i jus packed my room and i nearly suffocate to death...Now frm the dust but frm the consecutive bending and standing..Had diffiultly breathing man..Told you i'm obese liao..That explains the SOB...Haha..Butr anyway i'm done wif my room and today my mama gonna clear up her rm...Can't help her coz the stupid dept always doesn't approve my leave!!!! So my sis hafto do the dirty job...But she say she wanna lose some wt..So some ex is gd for her..Hehe..I guess all of us need acupunture aft all the clezning up man....
'm so sick of wearing the same few clothes to work everyday!!!!! I wanna get home open up my closet and choose frm the tonnes of clothes!!!!!But that few clothes gd too..Coz i doesn't need to fret abt what to wear....My mama always say I'm dressed like her maria(aka maid)...But then i see no pt in dressing up when we're just going TM or somewhere near..haha..Too ma fan...In fact i dun even dressed up to work...Shorts and t shirt is gd...(ask carol and she'll agree)
I'm super duper tired everyday!!!!! Waking up at 6 instead of my usual 7am... Coz i need to take the train myself and t eh train ride is so long..I'm always dozing off in the train...In fact I'm always thinking of not coming to work everyday..Wahaha..
It's not even a yr and here i am ranting non stop abt not working.But i guess nobody likes working..Carol doesn't also ( I think..) But i'm still waiting...The news say SMU graduate starting pay is frm $2800... so much more than mine...My BF..I'm retty sure you know what i'm hinting at..hehe...
Time to do some work..if not my boss gonna sack me soon...
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
♥ 9:30 AM
It've been a week... But the hse not ready yet...So sianz.. everyday rushing here and there..Like a mad woman...Wanna take leave but it's such a difficult task...All they know how to say is we can't spare you...Not enuff ppl... we see how later... Sick of all these... All your leaves are for impt matter..Mine isn't la!!!!! For fucking sake...I 've urgent matters to do also!!!!! Damn it.... Pardon me..But I'm feeling damn pissed now... Haiz...
Work..Boss... Seniors... Though it's such a small working place here.. But you can see afew who is treated as "outcast"... Sometimes it's not that we doesn't understand you all..It's the stuff you all do aren't justified... What's the use of telling e you're scared..If you're do sth abt it...If But i can assure you your greatest fear will come true soon...i cetainly hope it come true soon!!!!!
I'm going thru sever mood swings...I think i'm gong mad soon!!!! How can some1 be feeling happy 5mins ago and then the next moment tears are welling up in her eyes..I think I'm getting terrible...I guess the trauma of seeing that man is still ere....I thought i've let it go...In actual fact i haven't...How much time do i still need??/ Maybe my lifetime...
My luck is getting frm bad to worse... I need a chgane of luck...I think i need to start praying soon..Shall find 1 day drag baby to the temple wif me..Hmm...
Haven seen Mr BF yet....So sad...I miss you!!!!!!! When can we go out???he's learning salsa now...Wif a
FEMALE classmate... (I must highlight and bold the female part...) Hope he doesn't dance till he fall in love wif her...(Though he always assure me he wont...)Hmph....But who knows???
Sunday, March 04, 2007
♥ 3:06 PM
The weather is getting so hot...sweating non stop..yucks...
I think im geting better now... after meeting alvin on fri... cried my eyes out..Wahaha...Think it pained him... But i like sitting on his lap hugging him tight and crying....Then he'll hugz me tight and sayang me...My fav... Not that he don't hugz me tight or sayang me..But we seldom meet... So must love every moment of his affection....
My hse is going under renovation on mon...Will be staying at my grandma hse for the time being...Hope a week will do... Alvin is so sad when i told him mon start renovating...Coz...
Him: So when you renovating ur hse???Me: Mon!!!! (for dunno how many countless of times...)Him: Then where you gonna stay at??Me: My grandma hse loh... My parents gonna stay ere also leh...Hee ( Smile foolishily...)Him: Laugh till like that...Me: Why leh?? What's wrong??Him: Nothing la...Eh...you gonna stay at your grandma hse...THEN...i go home gonna be so difficult...Me: ......Then dun send me home la..i can go home by myself...Him: No no no...Later you trip and fall la..etc etc..Me: Pls la...that is you ok...i also used to going home..I wont get lost or wat ok!!!!Him: No no no...You so clumsy....Me: Neba ok!!! ok la..Then tue dun meet then you dun need send me home...Him: no no no...MUST meet.....Then you drive me home!!!!! Wahahhaa..Me: ...... No car...bleah..Him: How can you like that?? Always dun wan fetch me home.... So sad...Me: Now then you know ah??? Go find a gf who will send you home loh...Hee..Him: .....
He so sad... coz he got no straight bus home and he need to walk a long way to mrt to Poor thing!!! But nvm la...It's only for a week baby...Bear with it....Hehe...
Thursday, March 01, 2007
♥ 10:30 PM
I wonder why blogger need to change to google!!!!! And by changing to google i need to have a google account so that i can blog!!!! What a fucked up system!!!!!!!! It's just forcing ppl to change...... Damn pissed!!!!!
I'm already quite troubled today and now when i wanna blog they have to ask me to sign up!!!!
Must be wondering why i'm so troubled and sad today. A patient collapse on the table early in the morning.Haiz..2nd time i kena this kind of case...But this time it's worse than the 1st time.... He was just transferred to the bed and sudden;y he just collapse.....The whole 20-25mins was busy giving him CPR...adrenaline...And Shocking him... I was almost in tears staring frm outside...Not that i know him or anything.... It's just that feeling of seeing some1 dying in front of you is terrible....I guess you ppl won't understand it.... I'm so sad and demoralised now...
I feel like crying......I need shoulders.. Fri baby...Let me cry all i want......
