Monday, May 26, 2008
♥ 8:48 PM
I've been playing this 2 songs NON-STOP... i heard 爱来过 on a show while 我不配 is after i saw the song mtv... I find it so nice so.. (I can't describe the feeling i have also...)
爱来过我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中
爱来过来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠辗过
连遗憾也都不争气的
珍惜成笑容
爱来过让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我
ho……
hu……iye iye…
寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大会容得下
我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦
我就是要等你回来
如果需要动用奇迹来召唤回你
就让泪蒸发下成雪花
和我一起在爱中被融化
爱来过让我完整过(让我)幸福过
爱来过让我完整过让我幸福过
我不配这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里
这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪
这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配
Friday, May 23, 2008
♥ 10:41 PM
It's almost end of may and i haven't make a decent post yet... Let's just fast forward time to my birthday...Hehe...
Went to pick up the bf.. As usual.. HE was late la.. Still ask me to pick him up at 930 the night before coz the movie was at 11... In the end i reach at 940 he came down at 10... Stupid bf... Forgo the mac breakfast (actually i'm not that keen for mac breakfast..) and drove all the way to cathay... reach ard 1030... Went for a quick breakfast at toast box... Then rush down to get the tickets for iron man!!!! Nice movie... Haha... Though the guy looks kinda fat in the show.. Haha... Then the bf keep asking if i wanna get on the Singapore Flyer.. (not very keen also) but he kept asking that means HE;s VERY KEEN on taking it... so we went ahead with it... Bought the tix at $26 and got the whole capsule to ourselves!!!!! So happy!!!! Ppl paid like $1k over jus to get their wn private moments... We paid only $32!!!! Jealous right.... Hehe... Then we went for brunch at square 2.. Wanted to try the korean bbq but it's so ex la... Not buffet kind in e end we tried another korean restaurant... I like the food la... Kimchi soup.. Nice..haha... Then we went Secret Recipe to get some cakes.. My colleagues were raving about their cakes and I;ve NOT tried them be4... So MUST try... I bought the americano and another cho cake (can't remember the name coz that 1 is not tat fantsatic..) Americano is nice.. Sounds like some coffee right.. But it's choc cheesecake... Eat it straight frm the fridge.. Taste damn nice... Then home sweet home.... And i'm offically 1 yr older.... I guess i don;t need to announce my age here..... I'm OLD...
Fast forward again to this week... Start of the week i've been pondering about something... But yesterday i've finally made up my mind.... Wahahah.... It's such a big relieve man...... I can feel the load off my mind... So now i shall jus relax and enjoy....
Yesterday was hell day!!!!! Got this BCLS re-certification!!!!! Crap la.... CPR till my hand is bruise now...... 5 cycles of 30 chest compression and 2 400-600ml of breath... I did like 3 times coz.. the 1st time not enuff strength....2nd time too fast.....3rd time I FINALLY DID IT!!!!! I was panting like hell and im more in need of the CPR....
Went for yoga... trying to master all the damn difficult pose... But i still cant figure how to make myself light!!!!! I still cant seem to lift myself off e ground!!! But i'm making gd progress for my headstand..Woohoo... my hamstring is still so tight,..... Wonder what is wrong.... So many things to master...seems like yoga is not that boring after all.....
i wanna go hongkong!!!! I've been there like 10yrs ago and i was still so young then (I hate thinking back now....)!!! I wan eat and shop and eat and shop!!!! Carol say she knows of all the shopping center!!!!! I wanna get the map from here and shop till i drop.... I think the bf might kill me....he'll whine and say can we sit down??? Haha..... Drink coffee and relax???
Talking abt bf... He's so busy... I've been like meeting him once a week.. He's so busy till he thinks that we're meeting twice a week... idiot.. It's ONLY ONCE a week.....When he told me we can't meet till next fri coz he need study for his exam... Obviously i'll feel sad right... If i don;t feel sad there must be sth wrong somewhere liao....Then he said i sure know how to make myself sad.... But it's not that i don;t understand.... I undertsand perfectly well.. But it's just something i can't control.. Maybe i shd learn manage my emotions better... But once time pass by its lost FOREVER.... There is no such thing as next time i'll be able to accompany you more.....You can't make up for lost time.....But it's ok..... His studies more impt..... I guess telling him how i feel makes me feel better at least i'm not that grumpy and grouchy and unhappy... Haha....
Saturday, May 03, 2008
♥ 10:59 PM
Omg.. I haven't blog for like ages... No wonder blogger always can't remember me on my computer... Stupid..
Almost 2 months... I can see giantic cobwebs building on my site... But i guess nobody bothers to read also... Nothing interesting AT ALL!!! Just complaints about work and life...
Why do people have so much complains?I guess we'll never contented with what we have... We always want more... When we've got more we want even more.... Greedy people.. Not as if I'm not like that... I'm obviously 1 of the kind... Because I'm constantly complaining to everyone!!!!!! I'm a complain QUEEN!!! I guess that's because of my job... Service line..... Waiting for people to write complains letter about you and vent their anger on you... Sometimes I'm so sick of it.... But do I have a choice??? They're patients... They got the right... Sick of talking about all these.. Don't misunderstand.. I didn;t get any complain letters.. It's just tired of all these shit....
Apr 21st was our JCIA week... Everyone was super duper gan chiong... I can't stand it... That week i almost went mad.... I went into a loner state.... I don't talk to ppl.... I show a disinterested face.... I can't be bothered... When in fact i'm Very bothered and affected... everyday without fail we'll get scolding in the morning.... We get spotchecks from her throughout the day.... It's getting on our nerves... She's so stressed up and she can't control her emotions and the only way she knows is to vent it on us!!! We're HUMANS too.... We're not for you to vent your frustration or to relieve your stress.... Find some other places or ppl to do it.... Every single day for that week.... Even till now... I got that dishearten feeling in me..... My colleague asked me something on the train that day... Am i leaving.. I asked her why.. And she say I'm not showing that enthusiasm at work...I said i was just very tired... Tired of the way she's treating us..Tired of being so last min... Tired of all the changes and we having to memorise all of them... Tired of all the lecturing... Tired of i guess EVERYTHING... that doesn't mean that I haven't thought of leaving... I guess that's always what in the juniors' mind.... It's just that there haven't been any gd opportunity....
Apprasial week again... A few of my friends have gone through theirs... i don't know when mine will be.. I guess i really lost that enthusiasm somewhere along the way.... I don't know if i'll find it back... I goes to work like a corpse everyday.. do my duties.keep to myself and leave on the dot... I'm tired... I'm just tired.....What shd i say to her??? My training??? My pay??? Her attitude?? Almost 2 yrs there... Ex colleague master her EEG in 2 yrs.. Me... 2 yrs and i haven't even touch a head... Pathetic... Pay.... I think I'm losing out to alot of ppl who started work ard the same time as me.... Sucks..... Her attitude is not worth saying.... She won;t change.... It's wont make a difference anyway.....
Bf doing summer course for 1 month...Meanwhile I'm trying tokeep myself entertain.. He doesn't understand sometimes... Or maybe it's me who doesn't understand most of the time..... days to weeks to months... We shd be getting used to it... I think we're too used to it to a pt I'm worried...
I guess enoygh of depressing stuff... As i'm typing this post i can see the gloomy clouds gathering above my head!!!! Shit... Anyway It's gonna be my BIRTHDAY SOON!!!!
which also means that I'm getting older and lder and oder!!!!
FREAK!!!!!! Can i just stay at 21yrs old...... I seem so old now.... Sometimes i don't even know what nowadays small kids are talking about..... That's GENERATION GAP!!!! Argh!!!!!! But i still wonder what the bf have in mind..... I've to fetch him on that day la..... Stupid!!!!! He better have a whole day plan in mind!!!!1 Bleah...
